My little man is 10 months old. He is still nursing twice a day. But let's be honest, he's kind of crazy when he nurses.
He likes to roll over onto his belly when he nurses.
Or even stand up when he nurses (when we're laying on the bed)
He does more socializing than eating when he nurses.
I know there are some of you who are totally into nursing babies for 12+ months, and that is all kinds of wonderful for you. But for me, I don't know how much longer I can take of this nonsense.
He doesn't like me to hold him close to my body like when he was a newborn. He doesn't want to just drink, he wants to drink, look around, talk to the big kids, drink some more...like I am his milk on-tap.
But here's my problem. I don't know how to stop. I don't know how I did it with my other kids. With my Little Man, I think I just quit cold turkey. I don't remember any pain on my side and he was pretty happy with the formula. My Princess had acid reflux really bad, so when I stopped nursing she stopped spitting up. Making it easy to stop because she was finally feeling better.
But my Little Man is not like the other two. He's such a momma's boy. He still clamors for my chest and he still wants to nurse. Plus, when I don't nurse him, I hurt. It's painful. Obviously I am still making milk because he's gulping it down, but do I have to sacrifice my own personal space/modesty to nurse this baby-almost-toddler?
He's fully capable of drinking milk, he's had it before. He feeds himself finger foods. He holds his own bottle. So why do I feel I need to continue nursing this baby? Is it because for some reason I feel like I won't be as good of a mom if I stop nursing?
Am I waiting for some sort of miraculous weight-loss if I continue this torture (which on some days it truly is) or do I just continue to have this bonding time with my son. Do I let him nurse while he twirls his hair in his hand, just so I can gaze into his beautiful brown eyes?
I am torn inside. Part of me wants to quit and part of me is afraid it will hurt. Hurt physically and emotionally.