"We have your blood work results"

On Wednesday morning, my OBGYN's office called me. When they said their name followed by, "We got your blood results back in and the Doctor wanted me to call you." I went into complete panic mode. You see I had just had blood drawn and my annual pap test done. (fun stuff, right?) So of course I was thinking the worst.

But as it turns out my blood results are not the worst they could be and they are actually manageable with a little pill.

I have a thyroid problem. My thyroid level is low, which means that my thyroid is working to hard. I have hypothyroidism. My thyroid is giving me all kinds of grief.

For those who don't know, the thyroid is located in your neck and controls the way your body uses energy. Because I am pregnant and during the first trimester usually don't have much energy anyway, I would have never known that my thyroid was off because fatigue is a symptom of pregnancy for me.

Other symptoms of Thyroid problems are: (as found on webmd)

• Feeling tired, weak, or depressed.
• Dry skin and brittle nails.
• Not being able to stand the cold.
• Constipation
• Memory problems or having trouble thinking clearly.
• Heavy or irregular menstrual periods.

Alright, so it's probably going to be total TMI here, but I have pretty much had all of these symptoms for almost the last year. I just thought my body had changed with baby #3 and that this is how I would be. I thought I was tired because I had a newborn and two other very active kids who didn't take naps any longer.

Another symptom the doctor said was a sign of hypothyroidism is weight gain. I had been diligently trying to lose weight after having my little man and I was not having much success at all. Talk about frustrating! This last check-up I had, when my blood was tested, I had gained 10lbs!! I stood on that scale and about stroked out right there. I could not believe what I was seeing!

The other frustrating part of this whole process is the fact that I had my thyroid levels tested by another doctor and I was told that they were nothing to worry about. I guess I could have been feeling better all along!

So as it stands right now, I will probably be on a thyroid medicine for the rest of my life. It is possible that after I deliver #4, my levels will go back to normal and I will not need the medicine anymore.

I kind of thought that this pill would make me miraculously feel better, but as it turns out the few days I have been taking it have been the hardest days so far. Maybe because in my mind I am making it worse because I know my condition, but I feel like I just can't get enough sleep! There are days where I feel like the worst mom ever!

I was talking to Oswald and told him how terrible I feel because I have no energy and instead of him agreeing with me or ridiculing me for being lazy or tired, he said the sweetest thing. He said, "Jennie you can't fight what your body is doing to you."

How did I get such an amazing man. And no matter how hard I try, I can't fight what my body is doing to me. I have no control over it, but in a couple of weeks when that medicine is working, I am going to start feeling a whole lot better! And I can't wait for that day!