I do this each and every time I have a baby...I want to change the way my body looks. My chest is far to big, my stomach still has a huge pooch, and my wedding ring still won't fit on my finger.
Yes, I do know she's only 11 weeks old (tomorrow), but I want to look the way I did before I ever had kids. I want to be thin and feel sexy.
And what's worse, I want it to happen NOW! I don't want to have to put in the effort or the work to make it happen. I know that if I did put in the work, I could do it, but I am such an instant gratification girl and want results NOW. Not tomorrow. Not next month. NOW!
I am nursing, so it makes watching what I eat very difficult for me. It's hard for me to count my calories when she's taking so many from me. I'm not exactly sure how to go about doing this. The thought of eating less and still providing for my Love Bug, seems so daunting to me. I guess I need to just make better choices rather than limiting the amount of food I'm eating.
Like today, I went for a 30 minute walk, then Oswald made me an omelet with no cheese (makes my Love Bug spit) for breakfast. Then my lunch was a good size salad and 3/4 cup of grapes. I spent 2 hours in the pool playing with my kids. Came home, showered had 6 Red Vines (my ULTIMATE vice) and then shared a bag of popcorn with my two big kids. It doesn't seem all that bad, but it's not super awesome either. I should not have had the licorice, but I can't help myself.
I should throw it in the trash, but I can't. I have a hard time wasting food, even if it's junk food.
I have set a goal for myself to run a 5K in September. We're trying to fly to Arizona in September as well and I would love to be another 20lbs smaller. I would love to be able to wear my wedding ring again (without it being re-sized). I would love to wear all of the clothes I was once able to fit into. Even if I can't make my nursing chest smaller, at least I can work on getting my post baby belly to shrink.
I really want Oswald to do this with me. I really want him to feel empowered. I want us to both drop some weight. Today he did put on a shirt that was once too snug and he was able to button it and it had some slack to it even! So awesome for him.
The other thing, I don't want to have to have a gym membership to achieve this goal. I want to do it on my own. I don't want to use a weight-loss supplement. I want to lose this weight the good old fashioned way...eating healthier and exercising.
I go to the doctor on Wednesday for a silly check-up and I will weigh myself. I am going to hold myself accountable and post my weight and pictures on this blog. Please be supportive, no haters! I'm putting myself out there, hoping to help myself make a change.
A change for the better.
A change for the healthier.
A change for my lifestyle.